Day 13 - Fear of being alone

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the thought of ‘our house going back to only having 1 dog again’. 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the thought of ‘our house going back to only having 1 dog again’, and the negative emotion of fear, thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my own fear.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and  allowed myself to see/realize/understand that when we only had 1 dog in the house, instead of 2, the actual experience didn’t actually resemble anything close to fear.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that I would feel ‘lonely’ if we didn’t have any dogs within our house.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see/realize/understand that I am always alone, and that there are many times where I am in a situation where I am in fact alone, yet don’t feel lonely, because I am always with myself.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to base the decision of getting a new dog on the fear of being lonely or of my dog being lonely, in self-interest, instead of accepting and allowing myself to base the decision on whether or not it is best for the dog and for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to follow the direction of the mind’s suggestions that I will be un-happy if I don’t have this dog, in self-interest, instead of accepting and allowing myself remain here and make a decision that is based on practical considerations, such as whether or not I will be able to support this dog to have a life as I would like to have.

When and as I see myself go into the fear of being lonely if I don’t have a dog or my partner in my life, I stop and I breathe and I remain in the moment as the expression of who I am.

I remind myself that I was born alone and will die alone, and at many times will apparently be alone with myself and will be okay in those moments.

I see/realize/understand that I am always with myself at all times, Al-One, and it doesn’t matter which ‘specific’ people I am with because I am always here with myself.

I see/realize/understand that the biggest consideration should be whether or not another will be supported to have a life in which I would like for myself.

I see/realize/understand that the only time I have a problem with being alone, is when I 'think' and fear that I may be alone forever.

I commit myself to stop the fear of being alone and show myself how I am actually alone with myself most of the time.

I commit myself to stop the making of decisions in the fear of being alone.

I commit myself to make decisions here, that are not based in self-interest, and in fact based on what is best for all.

Day 12 – New Puppy!

 

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the thought of ‘the new dog’ and the positive feeling of happiness, by accepting and allowing myself to define happiness within the thought of having a second dog.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see/realize/understand that I hide the fact that I want this new dog, because I believe that I will be happier, showing myself that I have a fear of being un-happy.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to attempt to hide away from my un-happiness, because it is not in self-interest and charging of energy.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the thought of ‘feeling shitty about my life, for the rest of my Life’.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the thought of ‘feeling shitty about my life, for the rest of my Life’, and the negative emotion of fear, thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my own fear.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see/realize/understand that my apparent ‘un-happiness’ is through my own acceptances and allowances.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see/realize/understand that in my un-happiness I am experiencing myself as who I have accepted and allowed myself to become.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the thought of ‘being miserable’.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the thought of ‘being miserable’, to the negative emotion of fear, thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my own fear.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to apparently be miserable instead of accepting and allowing myself to remain in the moment as the expression of who I am.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the thought of ‘my new dog playing and being quiet’, and the positive feeling of happiness, by accepting and allowing myself to define my happiness within the thought of ‘my new dog playing and being quiet’, outside and separate from myself.

When and as I see myself go into ‘happiness’, when the thought of my new dog comes up, I stop and I breathe and I remain in the moment as the expression of who I am.

I see/realize/understand that I place limitations on myself when I define my happiness within the thought of 'my new dog'.

I see/realize/understand that within that thought and by accepting and allowing the positive feeling of happiness, I am separating myself from here and the physical and am blinding myself to who I have become.

I see/realize/understand that a dog is not a possession, and is a living being that needs care to live, and when I define my happiness within the  thought of him, I am separating myself from him as the being that he actually is in the physical.

I see/realize/understand that I am accepting and allowing these thoughts and feelings of happiness, so that I can feel better about myself, which is in pure self-interest.

I commit myself to stop the thoughts and feelings of happiness in self-interest and sort myself out for what is best for all.

I commit myself to stop using thoughts and positive feelings about my new dog to hide myself away from myself, so that I can avoid the shit in my life that I have accepted and allowed.

I commit myself to really investigate the shit in my life

I commit myself to do what is best for my new dog and all and remain in the moment as the expression of who I am, to support and assist his physical body in whatever he may need, as I would treat him the way I would like to be treated.

I commit myself to stop the narrow definition of my happiness within the thought of having a new dog.

When and as I see myself go into fear of going back into un-happiness because I refuse to hide my un-happiness anymore, I stop and I breathe, and I remain in the moment as the expression of who I am.

I see/realize/understand that the energy of feeling un-happy will eventually pass, as it is simply energy.

I see/realize/understand that there is a certain amount of energy that will need to pass, and when fear only creates a new layer that masks this initial negative energy.

I see/realize/understand that the actual experience of un-happiness does not having anything to do with fear.

I see/realize/understand that I resist being happy, because I am of the mind, and the un-happiness is going against self-interest

I commit myself to stop creating new masks/veil’s over the negative energy within myself by stopping the fear within myself of being un-happy for un-known amount.

I commit myself to face the negative energy that I have accepted and allowed within myself and to stop self-interest and do what is necessary in what is best for all.

Day 11 – Let’s talk about sex

My partner and I have not had sex in about 4 days.  I really want to because I enjoy it and afterwards, I feel relaxed.  If I don’t have sex then I believe that my body is not getting nourished.  I  believe that sex is food for the body and one is more rejuvenated and able to take on the world if they have had the opportunity to express sexually in the physical.  Sex to me feels good when I orgasm, like I have released a lot of tension.  I feel cleared and not so wound up with my own stress.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see/realize/understand that my partner is unstable and needs the stability of myself to go forward.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to believe that if I don’t have sex than my body won’t be nourished and things will be more difficult to manage in my day.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see/realize/understand that I don’t feel good if I haven’t had sex in a few days is because I have accumulated energy within myself through participating within the mind.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to abuse sex in self-interest so that I can feel a certain way without any regard for the physical, or what is best for all.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to attempt to manipulate my partner into having sex with me, when she does not want to, so that I can get my way in self-interest.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to support my partner in a way that I would like to be supported if she did not want to have sex.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to consider my partner and the stage that she is at in her own process.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the thought of ‘my partner not allowing us to have sex for extended periods of time’.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the thought of ‘my partner not allowing us to have sex for extended periods of time’, and the negative emotion of fear, thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my own fear.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to use manipulation tactics to play on her weaker character flaws in order to try and avoid my fear of us not having sex for long periods of time.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the thought of ‘if I don’t have sex, I will be more pent up and I won’t be able to think clearly or interact socially as well and my performance at work will go down’.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the thought of ‘if I don’t have sex, I will be more pent up in my mind and I won’t be able to think clearly or interact socially with others as well, and my performance at work will go down’.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see/realize/understand that my ‘performance’ at work is really like a stage show, where I play a character that tries to impress those that have a stake in deciding whether or not I will keep my job.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear the thought of ‘my performance at work not impressing those that have a stake in whether or not I will continue to remain employed (my bosses)’.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to connect the thought of ‘my performance at work not impressing those that have a stake in whether or not I will remain employed (my bosses)’, and the negative emotion of fear, thus I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to fear my own fear.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see/realize/understand that even if my performance does not impress my bosses, I will still be here in the physical as life, except if I go into the possession of fear.

When and as I see myself go into fear over not having sex for an extended period of time, I stop and I breathe and I remain in the moment as the expression of who I am. 

I see/realize/understand that I am here, and when I go into the thought of not having sex, I am taking myself away from here, and creating separation and consequences within my world.

I see/realize/understand that even though sexual expression may be food for the body, a body can function easily simply with food, water, sleep, and shelter/clothing.

I commit myself to supporting myself to remain here in the moment and stopping the fear of not having sex, by following my breathe and realizing that people survive all of the time without having sex.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed the backchat ‘my partner is destroying me and her by not having sex’, instead of accepting and allowing myself to see/realize/understand the irony that when I accept and allow the backchat as myself, I am actually sabotaging and destroying our relationship and myself at the same time.

I commit myself to stop the backchat in the moment of my partner not wanting to have sex with me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from the thought of ‘my partner will not agree to have sex with me’, and the negative emotion of anger, by accepting and allowing myself to define anger within the thought of my partner will not have sex with me when I want it, outside and separate from myself.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see/relaize/understand where it is that I am being self-dishonest, through accepting and allowing anger.

I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and allowed myself to see/realize/understand that I am equal to and one with my partner, and if I was having resistances to sex and was stressed out, the last thing that I would want is my partner breathing down my neck trying to manipulate me into having sex.

I commit myself to treat my partner as I would like to be treated, and stopping the manipulation and anger in trying to have sex, and remaining patient and supportive the way that I would like to be.

Day 10 - Happy Go-Lucky Character Self-Corrective Statement

 

When and as I see another in a state of scatteredness, where it appears that it is hard to find the words for something, and they are not being clear and directive, and I start to go into a state of judgment, towards them, seeing them as less than, I stop and I breathe and I remain in the moment as the expression of who I am.

I see/realize/understand that I am actually looking at a part of myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from, and when I go into superiority in comparison with this person for them not being fluent in their communication, I actually accept and allow fear and inferiority to exist within myself and will judge face this later on, as I have created it through separation in that moment of judgment.

I see/realize/understand that I have the exact same moments where I can’t gather myself together, or am in some kind of emotional state that I have created through self-interest where I am scattered.

I see/realize/understand that I am equal to and one with the tone of voice that I may hear in another, as it is my perception of how that person is talking that I perceive, which comes from myself.

I commit myself to stop the judgment of a stutter, or the tone that a person might speak with and remain here to support them as I would like to be supported.

I commit myself to support that person as I would like to be supported, by being patient in the moment, and listening to the specific words they are speaking in the moment, instead of the tones of voice or any stutters I hear.

When and as I see myself in an emotional state where I am scattered, things are foggy and I fear others around me are starting to see me as this fog and not someone that is sharp and important, I stop and I breathe, and remain in the moment as the expression of who I am.

I see/realize/understand that in the moment of fogginess and state of disarray, I am still here, even with the state that I am in.

I see/realize/understand that I have created the state that I am currently in through my own acceptances and allowances.

I see/realize/understand that by going into the character of ‘happy-go’lucky’ to ‘try and pull the wool over others eyes’ so that they won’t see this state I am in, I am actually in fear of others changing their opinion of me, and when I am in this fear, I proliferate separation and abuse and prevent my own self-change to what is best for all.

I see/realize/understand that in believing that in trying to pull the wool over other people’s eyes, I am actually pulling the wool over my own eyes and only deceiving myself only moving further and further away from the truth of myself.

I see/realize/understand that others that I see as wise/important or not wise/important are simply parts of myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from, and am therefore equal to and one with them.

I commit myself to remind myself in those moments where I am foggy, and things are not clear that I am still here, and that I have created this experience of myself through my own acceptances and allowances.

I commit myself to support myself to do what is best for all, by stopping the actions of the happy go-lucky character, and remain here in the moment to face my own creation of myself.

I commit myself to stop the fear in the moment of others judging me as less than and feeling awkward towards me, by reminding myself of my breathe and grounding myself to  the physical world I live in through feeling my fingers and toes.

I commit myself to support myself to stop the fear of others judging me as less than for not being wise/important by stopping the valuing of others in how wise/important I perceive them to be, and realizing that all that is in this world as the physical is of equal value.