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When and as I see
myself seeking validation and positive re-enforcement of others, I stop and I breathe
and I remain in the moment as the expression
of who I am.
I see/realize/understand
that I have chosen this specific person to get validation and positive
re-enforcement from them in complete self-interest,
for if it weren't to somehow gain, then it would not matter who in the
world I would need to get positive re-enforcement from. I
see/realize/understand that I choose this person to get validation from,
because I judge
them as more than. I see/realize/understand that I have separated myself from
this specific person that I am attempting to seek validation from, and am not
in fact having an actual relationship
with them, but instead attempting to full-fill my self-abdicating self-interest
to 'feel good'.
I see/realize/understand that in attempting to get validation, positive
re-enforcement from another, I am in fact exposing that I live
in separation
from my own self within 'lack', as I apparently am not full-filled within
myself and must seek my happiness externally
in separation.
I see/realize/understand that by defining my happiness and full-fillment in
getting validation from others, through trying to please them, I am in fact
severely limiting my expression and dancing around any disagreements or potential
conflict
that may need to be worked out. I see/realize/understand that avoiding
conflict, to 'keep the peace
(piece)', only serves to maintain that separation
and real relationship
with another person and the actual expression of myself. I
see/realize/understand that under the pretenses of avoiding conflict,
any abuse
is allowed
to proliferate as it will be kept unchecked. - I commit
myself to investigate the reasons why I have decided to choose specific people
to please, and why I would try to protect a certain 'nice guy' or 'pleasing' image to
them. I commit
myself to be aware
and stop any deliberate acts of attempting to please another being for the sake
of my own validation and positive feelings
or protection of an image. I commit myself to develop a dialogue and an equal relationship
to the other person that I seek validation from. I commit myself to face the
conflict in my world, and resolve any disagreements, so that I can expand
myself and my
relationship with others in equality, for a world that is best for all.
When and as I see
myself go into the fear
of another judging
me as being less than, I
stop and I breathe,
and I remain in the moment as the expression of who
I am. I see/realize/understand firstly that I have not equalized myself to
this person and am living
in separation with them through judgment
of them as more than. I see/realize/understand that in judging them as more
than for specific attributes, I am in fact showing myself how I have judged others
in my life
as less than, for appearing to not have those same attributes. I
see/realize/understand that I am in fact living out
and becoming that in which I have judged, the polarity boomeranging back
and forth, between 'more than' and 'less than'. I see/realize/understand
that unless I do not equalize myself with all others in my world, I will
continue to boomerang back and forth, back and forth between the judgments of
myself compared
to others as 'more than' and 'less than'. - I commit myself to stop the
constant rattle of the mind
that would try to wonder, then predict, then worry
what another may be thinking
and judging of me, in the realization that I am in fact participating simply in
my own thoughts/projections
that I have created, and it would actually be impossible to know
just what they may be judging of me, unless I was fully in their shoes and
their mind.
I commit myself to stop the projections of myself being more than, or less than
another in a certain situation, and instead, stop and breathe, and realize that
I am here
with this person as myself, as I am seeing
them and interpreting them through my own mind,
in the realization that any judgment/separation of this other person as my own
interpretation serves only to create the platform of that in which I will later
live out, which shows that I really do not have self-directive principle over
my actions and instead live by the movement
of the boomerang of polarity. I commit myself to investigate relationships that
I have created in polarity with others in my world, to see where I have abdicated
my living in favour of the boomerang of judgment.
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